The Two Me's

I experienced a little hardship this past week, nothing big but enough to cause a small struggle between Diana and Dionna.  Yes, the two me's.  Diana is the person sure of her purpose, understands where she is headed and executes plans to get us there.  Dionna is the person who as soon as a bump in the road is very quick to ask the questions, "Why are we here?" "Why cant we just go back to what we know?" "Why didn't you listen to me and just play it safe?"  "Can we go now?"  Her voice just becomes so annoying and aggravating that it starts the fight between the two.  At times, although I have gotten better, I find myself trying to rationalize the points between the two arguments.  This then gets my emotions involved causing me to become tired and wanting to shut down from both voices.

Although I am working through the tale end of this, it made me question why I even become flustered?  I have seen my fair share of disappointments and hardships, in the end, it all worked out for my good.  It was through those hardships that I understood why certain things had to happen.  A missed relationship and a painful past led to my first book.  A miscarriage and a failed marriage led to a second book.  My past has given me great insight to be an excellent speaker.  A closed door on one job led to a dream job.  I know these things, so why do I waver on not only what I know but on what I have experienced.

The two me's.  The struggle, the fight and I am stuck in the middle.  I ask you, what are you wavering on that you already know to be true.  The real question is why?  Oh, the fight to be great. So it continues.....